So, you think you can reinvent yourself?

I AM. Yeah, so I thought I was/am until just the other day when I had a chat with Pete. More on Pete in a moment.
< rewind >
Year: 2009
Mission: to change everything about my life
‘09 stats: moved 3 times, sold 2 homes, changed car and hair color, friends and all furniture, with the exception of my mattress, kitchenware and tv; which has since been upgraded. Boyfriends, and boy friends, girl friends, art work, and finally “job/career”….NEW EVERYTHING…

Yes, I feel like a new person it’s my first “adult apartment” yet I have a long tale of 1950”s Suzy homemaker/MILK this is fun, light feeling and freeing, liberating you can recreate you life, your health, your attitude, Your thoughts create the life you are living, will live, have lived,….

NOW:
Pete and I are sharing the conference table and free WIFI both deep into laptop face. Time passes, work gets accomplished and conversations ensue, cool, it’s all good…
ME
“Ta da da dada here’s my cell phone, let me get yours? Ok great thanks that’s me calling you”
PETE
“Yeah, I know that number”
ME
“What number!? My cell phone number? I just got this phone, it’s new it’s a new new phone with a new number as well ….I was so happy to get a 305 area code back”
PETE
“That used to be one of my first old cell phone numbers. I had that number once before”

SIGH
Can we really change? Are we just regenerating the same old ideas isn’t there more? In the grand universe of cell phones in the Unites States of America can there not be an infinite number of cell phone numbers? AM I asking for too much? I’m just trying to be me all over again but better, conscience, given, helpful and compassionate, should I go on? That’s more my map these days.
Hey, Pete call me sometime… : )

sofloradio.com /The Beast Show /4:20 MMMM

http://www.media.softwar.com/sofloradio/archives/archivefiles/20100816-tbs.mp3

It’s all a numbers game

Everything. It’s the Matrix…the grid…. the number of beads on a rosary, mandala and for some even the number of karats on a ring. How may ______?

Why do the numbers matter? Ever pay attention to the numbers that sort of jump out into your life. I recently bought something special and the got an unsolicited discount price of $111 wow that was a special number to be given.

I started to pay attention, not in a numerology sort of way, but more in what numbers stand out. Example: I bought 2 Gatorades for a thirsty person, the total was $3.21, 3/21 is my birth date, hhhmmmm.

You know when your pennies matter, you start to count them? Well, I have always collected pennies and now find them along with dimes everywhere I go. It is called abundance and it’s also called my mother, Her presence. My mother would stop anywhere including the middle of a busy street to stop and pick up a penny and we would make so much fun of her but now we do the same. I say we because the same thing happens to my sister although she finds more dimes than pennies, ever since our mom passed away ten years ago. Ten years of coins imagine! Whenever I have found these coins it’s as if they are calling out to me in order to be seen because all of a sudden I’ll look down and there it is. It happens very frequently, in different countries, in countries where a 10-cent coin piece is no longer in circulation or used everyday. Weird right? Nope, it’s just my mom. I bend over with a smile, think of her and say a blessing, send her my deep love with a feeling gratefulness because I know she is with me and showing me I’m on my path. Go on a date + find a coin = good sign. Mom's not so hot on who I’ve been seeing on the personal side, hhmmm…LOL

Is that deep or stupid? Meaningful, mindful, superstitious, manic or what? Who knows yet some how finding a symbol for abundance matters to me, emotionally. When do we stop counting? Time doesn’t exist yet we worry about not having enough of it, not using it well, or watch brand watch to invest in. (ß-I wish)

Using your time well is a different matter. Investing in your friendships and associations and how we choose to give your time(energy) to is a different matter.

My position now is as helper. I’m the player who passes the ball so the next one can dunk it: he gets 2 points; I get the assist, we both win! My teams are strong, tough and talented. We all work for ourselves whiling helping each other I like this formula. There are rules but we set, it's not work, its what we do.


"Is it any wonder..." - 70's lyrics


I keep meeting people like you? Is it any wonder things are flowing, life is good? I get critiqued for saying too many "thank yous" on the air and thats valid and not a single question valid again, however in my defense my point of view is one of total complete gratitude, which must be expressed, period. how many times can you say thank you? please? i love you? or just smile at the universe? how many times do you?hhmmmm

A good friend recently came over with photos from her wedding, photos and albums and videos that were so beautiful and special I was very happy to be able to share in her happiness of wedding bliss plus laugh at the bride-zilla moments she allowed herself to have, fantastic! Except then preceded to explain the idea of mapping your way to manifest the man who you want in your life, oops! I wasn’t exactly sure how to take this information. Good advice or old wives tale? Her number is up, I still have the rest of the world to play with. what's that number? hhhmmmm

Either way: I AM helping....if I've helped make you smile or laugh... it's helped.

Blessed are we because we cross paths. …in harmony….with humility & to help one another.

On the AIR

In my mind the white back ground all red cap letters, interior lit, sign common out side studio doors, on sound stages, by audio booths and now pictured in my mind as I sit with head phones on and a mike at my lips in the suburban living of a world class radio talk show host, co-hosting with >ME< an internet broadcast 2 hours long, which then is re-broadcasted at any time & forever via download

Do you think I think about what I AM going to say? No, can’t do it. If I begin to think about what I have to say it is a total disaster.

 Case in point, this is a true story: I recently met a very nice gentlemen with a last name I can’t quite picture in my head or remember how it is pronounced correctly when it matters - like out loud. In my head the million times I repeat it I say it correctly and it rolls off my tongue so easily in my mind  and then when it matters I go all Bridget-Jones-Diary-moment….for real it’s like that serious probably worst than “Titspatrick/Fritz Patrick” What about typo/Faudian slips? Do those count for anything? My pick went out as prick …

AM I supposed to hold back or let her rip? The voice/tongue/thoughts/ideas/views/interests/knowledge/experience/inexperience/laughs/tard-ness//mom-ness/MOM-ness/MO-Factor-ess/….

So much to be done, so much I can or can’t do, so willing to be involved where do I begin?

Rule # 1: I will only be where I AM wanted

A good friend handed a thick book titled: Usage and Abusage A Guide to Good English, thank you again my friend. Think I think about what I say, nope now I think about the words I choose to express myself clearly and concisely as possible for right now and then maybe one day I’ll eve ask a question….

A voice: We are given,

              …..an outlet I am expressing,

                 ……and broadcasting

Blessed AM I for sitting in the folding chair across from the guy with 85902490 years of radio experience who won’t stop making me laugh, can’t help but share his knowledge and has opened this opportunity for moi, MO, Monica Withac, still can’t believe that’s me! Hats off to all those who sat here before; I’m just happy to be here at all.

 Well, at least on the air I can refrain from using certain words in my speech and there won’t be any more droppings a “F” bombs unless its totally called for but other than that I speak from a place I AM learning and discovering the power which carries in a voice. I AM at balance and that which comes from the heart and the mind comes to heal - why give the negative more spin lets shine a light on the positive the beautiful the wonderful.

There are many ways to enter into Coconut Grove I always choose the most scenic lush with greenery and sensory experience - a path worthy of renting a convertible for a day- that's just the path I like to be on one in which I AM grateful for all I see and smell and sense from nature and those around me.

“Reaction man reaction not negative action but positive”

Oh how happy I feel to choose to bring good news and happy stories uplifting crazy esoteric healing homopathic advice and views especaily via being bounced off of the total opposite of views and we still laugh? “Hey makes for good funny radio, yo!”

What a fun way to explore each other’s limits and opinions and share the process through to happy conclusion when so few of us know how to agree to disagree. Here is an outlet to share the many blessing in the people I have met along the way with a message, a musical piece or just peace to share via vibration via the internet via to the world with The Beast!

Do you think I think about what I say? Nope, that which comes from the heart heals. I ask for guidance before I sit down in front of the microphone it calms me not my nerves just ideas of topics and things to discuss…. I plan a show as if I planned a long promo as if I planned a short art fair as if everything I have ever done in my “professional career” has led me to the now and here,

 “right here, right now”- Fat Boy Slim 

So I just go with it seems to be working so far... 

If feels so right as if everything is falling into place as it is suppose to, movement and energies are being exchanged, trust and words are being challenged and yet we are all still rowing in the same direction in the same canoe down the same river ….of happiness, and “Yes, B, the river is made of gold and we all live happily ever after….”

Plus I take notes:

Critic number #2 “Ask questions, don’t suck up”